Today I decided to make spaghetti for dinner. My parents weren't home so I washed dishes and started preparing for it. & usually i ask my sister to help me wash the dishes, cook, clean and all that jazz, but today i was in a good mood so I decided i was fine by just doing it by myself. 


I cooked the spaghetti and i made a little less than my mom makes. I cooked it with ground beef, tomato sauce, mushrooms, and onions. I'm saying this because my brother doesn't like onions and mushrooms. I "set" the table and put down 4 plate mats. . . ? I don't know what they're called. The ones that go under your plate during dinner. . lol. But yeah and so I waited for my mom to come home. I even took the "liberty" to make our water. & by water i mean Tang. (When we eat dinner my sister usually makes our water because we drink Tang, lemonade, iced tea, kool-aid lol) and so I made it.  & this I did it with love, calmness, time, and care. My mom gets home so my bro and sis come down stairs after doing nothing to help me (which is fine cause i didn't ask them)


They look at my food and right away- "that's not enough pasta" "why does it look like that" "why isn't there ice in the water" "blah blah". And for those who don't know, i get angry puuurity quickly. My sister goes to the table and gets mad cause i only put down 4 "mats" when there's 5 of us but i had assumed my brother wasn't going to eat. So she called me and idiot and since i was already mad i hit her. Resulting in her hitting me back. Then my mom starts arguing with us, my dad's just there, my bro just makes me angrier, so now it feels like dinner is ruined. 


So during dinner i explained why I felt upset and angry. My mom said it was fine because when you get older you start to feel like that sometimes like when they start criticizing everything and you did it with love. and i'm guilty of also being ungrateful. So from now on i'm going to start to be much more considerate and thoughtful of what others do for me. Or things others do for others. & i also need to stop being such a baby. I mean i know i'm a delicate princess/barbie but still. . . . lol JK :D 


AND THERE WERE A LITTLE BIT OF LEFT OVERS SO HA!


& WE (my family & I) REALLY NEED TO STOP BEING SUCH FATTIES & WASTERS.


that's today realizations,