I skimmed through my blog looking for a post on my attention span. I'm sure I've written about it before-



My attention span is seriously in the gutter. I think it's been like this for a while, but I really just want to read a book, the news, watch a documentary, WRITE A GOOD? BLOG POST, I don't know.  I can sit through a lecture or presentation fully immersed and without a problem. It's mostly when I have control over what I want to do with my free time (which these days is all my time).

I don't want to be cheesy, but I want something intellectually stimulating, something that I can really enjoy. My past blog posts have all been about Monsta X and as much as I love those kids and appreciate sincere joy they bring me, I'm not really getting any smarter. Or forget smarter, just something that makes the rusty gears in my brain start turning. Even podcasts (where you truly have to do nothing but listen) can't capture my attention long enough. So even if I find something that I would enjoy (in theory) it doesn't work out. So I guess it's not really my attention span- it's more of me not succumbing to the sweet sweet call of being a vegetable 24/7. Which reminds me I want to find a reality show I can binge watch. LOL 😭😰

I swear I've written something like this before.

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Also, as you all don't know I graduated from college and I'm currently looking for a job. My blog and everything I've ever posted in my life is connected to my beloved Google Account. I'm not really fond of the idea of potential employers reading the annual life crises I've had since I was 17 so I'm thinking of the direction of this blog? I don't want to delete it, but ??.

Yikes, well until I figure out how to fix all this I'll go watch my new Monsta X fanclub behind the scenes DVD 🌝

Melissa

this is a way way lighter version of a depressing dark post I have drafted so I'm very happy about that.